It just hit me. Holy crap. My life is completely different. I'm a soccer mom. Of two teenagers. One from Yemen, the other from Guinea. My life is filled to the brim with activities that revolve around my two kids. What is THAT like???
My days consist of schedules, soccer practices and games, tutoring, chicken sandwiches, protein and vegetable intake considerations. I dream about these boys...I can't wait to get away from them and can't stop thinking about them when I'm gone. I'm rarely alone and this is one of the loneliest things I've ever done.
Mom Guilt is a very real thing and a wicked, sneaky bitch. My mistakes (temper) haunt me. I've never repeated myself so much in my life or asked so many questions to myself late into the night.
Does it matter that they rarely drink water and most of their fluid intake comes from Gatorade and Vitamin Water? I mean, I know it matters, but can I be graded on a curve since they used to only drink Coke and Sunny D?
How awful is it that I can't get them to remember to take their one a day vitamins? How terrible is it that I haven't had time to take them to get their final blood tests done for their physicals--and am sneaking in full STD testing?
When am I supposed to get them heavier sweaters and coats? When does enough clothing cross into too much clothing? How strict should I be with dating? When is too much control a bad thing? How do I keep myself from losing my temper because they're obsessed with texting and facebook?
Why can't I say good night once and leave it at that? Why do I have to go back to them 3-4 times with things I've remembered?
What the hell will I do once they're gone?
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